You think so? I hope. I feel like she’ll meet some of those needs or wants that I’ve been missing in the whole Dom/sub relationship. Don’t get me wrong, I wouldn’t say I hate any Doms I’ve had, but some, like my current one, just leave me unfulfilled.
Yeah, I get that. I mean, I've only had one so far and it's not that Hope, like, leaves me unfulfilled at all but I can imagine a situation where I felt that way.
I'm letting mine with Hope expire. I'm gonna ask Steven if he wants me but if not I'm gonna be on my own for a few weeks.
Then get to know him better. And it’s not dumb to fall in love here. Or anywhere. You fall in love, you fall in love. For me, it’s not something that can really be helped.
Yeah, I'm not. I mean, I'm waiting until we're closer to the time. The current one expires 9/9 so I'm gonna ask maybe a week before that? That's long enough to plan for stuff, right?
It should be, yeah. Time to discuss contract terms, talk through things. I don't know if he has another sub currently, but that would give time for him to discuss it with them. Figure out housing arrangements after that.
Should I ask her first, actually? Is that weird? Do I leave that to him? What's the etiquette? I don't know if either of them cares about the etiquette, they've both been here less time than me.
I don't think it's weird, necessarily, but I think maybe it's best left to Steven? Any time in the past when I was signing with someone who had another submissive, they always discussed it between them first. He may already know how she'll feel about a brother-sub.
Okay, that's fair. I've been going back and forth about telling her I have feelings for Steven. I don't know. I don't know why I even want to do that, it's dumb.
I haven't really had feelings this strong for anyone else. The closest I've gotten was Hope and, you know, mostly she didn't have another sub to tell about it
It's not dumb. She's someone that's close to him. Telling her has a chance of giving you some insight into how he may feel about you, what she may know.
Hope obviously never confided anything like that in me. By the time you two signed, she and I were in a very weird place.
I don't think you should feel weird. I mean, consent play is basically the world's most popular kink. Like fifty percent of women or something and like a third of men have some kind of nonconsent fantasy
I have a few different fantasies. Well, I guess the finder showed that. I just don't want to have people treat me like they did when Hope made that post.
Yeah no the consent is important. I did see the post, I don't really know what went down after it or as part of it.
I think for me it's that I already kind of feel like I'm worthless all the time so I need to be sure that my partner does not think that, or it's just reinforcing that shitty feeling. I need to know, in some part of my head, that this is happening out of like, mutual respect and pleasure
It better be happening out of mutual respect and pleasure. No one should make you feel worthless or shitty. And if I hear about it, I'm doing something about it, whatever their designation is. You are so wonderful, Quentin.
[It's kind of...cute? Touching? Something, that he was at least 50% talking about her, just using I statements and relating it to his own feelings to make it a little less pointed, and she went into protective mode anyway.]
To be fair no one has to MAKE me feel worthless. I just do. I'm working on it.
Just keep that same energy for yourself, please, okay?
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I'm letting mine with Hope expire. I'm gonna ask Steven if he wants me but if not I'm gonna be on my own for a few weeks.
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I think he’d be a fool if he doesn’t take you.
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She suggested ambushing him with a threesome together already and she doesn't even know about any of this, so I think she wouldn't mind too much.
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I haven't really had feelings this strong for anyone else. The closest I've gotten was Hope and, you know, mostly she didn't have another sub to tell about it
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Hope obviously never confided anything like that in me. By the time you two signed, she and I were in a very weird place.
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I think for me it's that I already kind of feel like I'm worthless all the time so I need to be sure that my partner does not think that, or it's just reinforcing that shitty feeling. I need to know, in some part of my head, that this is happening out of like, mutual respect and pleasure
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To be fair no one has to MAKE me feel worthless. I just do. I'm working on it.
Just keep that same energy for yourself, please, okay?
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