[.]
Oh I'm an expert, I've got a whole list of things to get rid of my inner demons
Running is the first one
Then eating
Then drinking
Then jerking off
Oh I'm an expert, I've got a whole list of things to get rid of my inner demons
Running is the first one
Then eating
Then drinking
Then jerking off
I'm on a strict no coming without permission regimen
But I do love me a good milkshake
But I do love me a good milkshake
[.]
I know I should be a gentleman and pretend I don't know who you mean but I know you're talking about Caitlin
I know I should be a gentleman and pretend I don't know who you mean but I know you're talking about Caitlin
Worry not, I will not tell her that I know that you know.
But yes, she would be a good reference to seek out regarding my spanking talents. Though, she does seem to quite enjoy my hand, if I may.
But yes, she would be a good reference to seek out regarding my spanking talents. Though, she does seem to quite enjoy my hand, if I may.
( he doesn't message quentin straight away. it's a little while later — not long enough that it's completely out of the blue, but enough time that it's clear he's spent SOME TIME thinking about whether to reach out or not.
(if daphne had still been here, he'd have reached out to her instead, said something cryptic about how quentin hadn't seemed like himself and he needs checking on, but she's not. he doesn't know anyone else that quentin's friends with — or if he does, he doesn't know they know quentin.)
so— )
"want to tell me why you strung me up, upside down?"
"feel like elaborating on why you were talking to me like I was you?"
"what the fuck was that about?" )
(if daphne had still been here, he'd have reached out to her instead, said something cryptic about how quentin hadn't seemed like himself and he needs checking on, but she's not. he doesn't know anyone else that quentin's friends with — or if he does, he doesn't know they know quentin.)
so— )
Hey.( first message: sent. then the tricky part: what the fuck to actually say.
"want to tell me why you strung me up, upside down?"
"feel like elaborating on why you were talking to me like I was you?"
"what the fuck was that about?" )
Normally I have dibs on hallucinations.( #nailedit??? )
Edited (I CANNOT type tonight ) 2023-11-14 20:11 (UTC)
[ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh]
[Marc is not the only person this happened with, is the thing. He can still see his own hands around Eliot's neck, he can remember trying to mentally transpose his own face over Eliot's. Eliot had taken it with grace, realizing quickly what was going on and reassuring Quentin once it was over. His neck was fine, it didn't even bruise.]
[The thing is it didn't really feel like a hallucination? He's hallucinated before, thanks to drugs. It felt more like...a game of pretend he couldn't make himself stop. Like he was just so deep into it that he couldn't shake it off. Not, honestly, entirely unlike subspace. An altered headspace that was too powerful to break on his own.]
I wasn't hallucinating
[long pause]
I don't think.
[another long pause]
I don't really know how to describe what was happening. How it felt
[Marc is not the only person this happened with, is the thing. He can still see his own hands around Eliot's neck, he can remember trying to mentally transpose his own face over Eliot's. Eliot had taken it with grace, realizing quickly what was going on and reassuring Quentin once it was over. His neck was fine, it didn't even bruise.]
[The thing is it didn't really feel like a hallucination? He's hallucinated before, thanks to drugs. It felt more like...a game of pretend he couldn't make himself stop. Like he was just so deep into it that he couldn't shake it off. Not, honestly, entirely unlike subspace. An altered headspace that was too powerful to break on his own.]
I wasn't hallucinating
[long pause]
I don't think.
[another long pause]
I don't really know how to describe what was happening. How it felt
1/2 ( cw: mostly vague references to DID, anti-semitism, institutionalisation )
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vestments
- 2023-11-18 20:10 (UTC) - Expandcw: less oblique references/discussion of suicide, low self-esteem/negative self-talk
proofofconcept
- 2023-11-18 20:30 (UTC) - Expandcw: second verse same as the first, talk of death + dying, passive suicidalism
vestments
- 2023-11-18 20:45 (UTC) - Expand[ Christmas morning, afternoon, and evening, there are deliveries being made, and Elle has plenty to give. Quentin receives a large tin of chocolate chip cookies. There is a card that reads:
"I hope you have a wonderful holiday and a lovely new year! Elle 💗" ]
"I hope you have a wonderful holiday and a lovely new year! Elle 💗" ]
( marc doesn't celebrate christmas, doesn't really do gift-giving in general — not because he's stingy, but because he's not very good at it. because he doesn't often have people in his life that he's able to get gifts for.
at one point, of course, there'd been marlene and there'd been frenchie — and nedda and samuels, and crawley and gena and her kids. he — and steven and jake — had given them all gifts at various points, different things depending on what seemed and felt appropriate at the time, depending on how marc or steven or jake had felt.
it's been a while now, since marc's had anyone to get gifts for. been a while, too, since he's felt the need to give anything. evidently, the city feels as if something ought to change.
when marc finds himself with the sensation, the feeling that he ought to do something for someone, he tries to ignore it. (he's marc spector, of course he's going to try and ignore it—.) it doesn't work — if anything, the sensation grows, it deepens, and marc simultaneously finds himself hating it and being unable to think of anything else.
so he sends a message, a short, simple text message.
(fortunately for quentin, perhaps, marc doesn't know where he lives. he could find it out, of course he could, but that'd be weird, and marc's trying not to be quite as HOLY SHIT ARE YOU OKAY AS A PERSON as he generally tends toward. )
Quentin.
( although at some point, marc messaging quentin, or quentin messaging marc is going to become a SIGN of something WEIRD being afoot. )
Happy holidays.
( does quentin know he's jewish? he — of course — has never said, but there's a part of him that thinks, that wonders if the other steven hadn't mentioned it, given everything marc's been able to pick up, been able to wrench from between unspoken utterances and admissions.
still—
"I feel like I need—".
no.
"I have something—."
absolutely fucking not.
"a gift—".
hahaha. )
Where are you?
( perfect. )
at one point, of course, there'd been marlene and there'd been frenchie — and nedda and samuels, and crawley and gena and her kids. he — and steven and jake — had given them all gifts at various points, different things depending on what seemed and felt appropriate at the time, depending on how marc or steven or jake had felt.
it's been a while now, since marc's had anyone to get gifts for. been a while, too, since he's felt the need to give anything. evidently, the city feels as if something ought to change.
when marc finds himself with the sensation, the feeling that he ought to do something for someone, he tries to ignore it. (he's marc spector, of course he's going to try and ignore it—.) it doesn't work — if anything, the sensation grows, it deepens, and marc simultaneously finds himself hating it and being unable to think of anything else.
so he sends a message, a short, simple text message.
(fortunately for quentin, perhaps, marc doesn't know where he lives. he could find it out, of course he could, but that'd be weird, and marc's trying not to be quite as HOLY SHIT ARE YOU OKAY AS A PERSON as he generally tends toward. )
Quentin.
( although at some point, marc messaging quentin, or quentin messaging marc is going to become a SIGN of something WEIRD being afoot. )
Happy holidays.
( does quentin know he's jewish? he — of course — has never said, but there's a part of him that thinks, that wonders if the other steven hadn't mentioned it, given everything marc's been able to pick up, been able to wrench from between unspoken utterances and admissions.
still—
"I feel like I need—".
no.
"I have something—."
absolutely fucking not.
"a gift—".
hahaha. )
Where are you?
( perfect. )
[o o f]
[Okay this is fine. He can handle this. Honestly like, literally no interaction they can ever have from this point forward could be worse than what's already happened.]
I'm at home. Up public housing. Theoretically going to work soon though, why?
[Okay this is fine. He can handle this. Honestly like, literally no interaction they can ever have from this point forward could be worse than what's already happened.]
I'm at home. Up public housing. Theoretically going to work soon though, why?
[.]
Okay so there's like levels to it?
Technically like just telling someone they look good could be mild praise kink, in that someone with a praise kink is probably going to get a little more out of that than someone without it
But usually it implies a more intense amount of "good boy, you're doing so well" or telling someone everything you like about their body or the way they suck dick or whatever
Okay so there's like levels to it?
Technically like just telling someone they look good could be mild praise kink, in that someone with a praise kink is probably going to get a little more out of that than someone without it
But usually it implies a more intense amount of "good boy, you're doing so well" or telling someone everything you like about their body or the way they suck dick or whatever
[ Huh. Interesting. He can certainly see the appeal, as someone who definitely enjoys being praised and who likes giving praise when earned. It's odd to him that it has a name though. ]
And you do not enjoy praise for your talents, or looks, or actions?
And you do not enjoy praise for your talents, or looks, or actions?
You're Invited!
Hope Mikaelson is celebrating her 23rd birthday at Subversion on May 4th - drinks, appetizers, cupcakes, and more!
gifts are not required, you are ღ
[ ooc: party is here if you're so inclined! ]
Hope Mikaelson is celebrating her 23rd birthday at Subversion on May 4th - drinks, appetizers, cupcakes, and more!
gifts are not required, you are ღ
[ ooc: party is here if you're so inclined! ]
I want to judge you but I guess I can't because I'm the nerd who was too socially inept for larping
Not getting attached isn't a requirement
Me and Eliot are pretty fucking attached and being contracted is good for us. Even if the city puts us through some shit, we can be there for each other after. Being attached is better, not worse
For us, anyway
The point is you can be attached and that be good
Me and Eliot are pretty fucking attached and being contracted is good for us. Even if the city puts us through some shit, we can be there for each other after. Being attached is better, not worse
For us, anyway
The point is you can be attached and that be good
Edited 2024-05-07 18:56 (UTC)
[ Nate would absolutely not say this next part if the truth weren't rolling out of him today. ]
yeah sure, until one of you leaves
is it still good for the one still stuck here?
that's what happened to caleb without me. so even though we were great, it still ended with loss
yeah sure, until one of you leaves
is it still good for the one still stuck here?
that's what happened to caleb without me. so even though we were great, it still ended with loss
I'm really glad you have that person. You really need trust going both ways
The receiver needs to trust that the giver won't go too far, and the giver needs to trust that the receiver will tell them before they go too far
Or a better way to put it is like, signals given and signals received
The receiver needs to trust that the giver won't go too far, and the giver needs to trust that the receiver will tell them before they go too far
Or a better way to put it is like, signals given and signals received
I do trust that of him, which comes as surprise. He has proven he will not act without my consent.
[ a sturdy ivory envelope addressed to / MR. QUENTIN COLDWATER / with a periwinkle wax seal arrives at your home address on june fifteenth.
attached is a handwritten note -- ]
Dear Quentin,
Your attendance would be most cherished. Please bring a guest as it pleases you.
Yours,
Daphne Basset ]
💐 PARTY LOG LOCATED HERE 💐
attached is a handwritten note -- ]
Dear Quentin,
Your attendance would be most cherished. Please bring a guest as it pleases you.
Yours,
Daphne Basset ]
text; un: gladiator (slightly backdated, mid-late Nov)
nichtstubenrein
2024-12-11 09:55 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Agron isn't sure what time it is when he sends this, because he cannot read the fucking time. It's a late hour. He's lonely, and he's been drinking. ]
Are you awake?
Are you awake?
Hey, yeah, I'm just closing up the Neptune. What's up?
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