[ It takes him a moment to think about whether he even wants to answer this at all, and yet (thanks duplicity) he can't seem to help it. ]
I would not describe such a thing as being full of water, not when full of cock instead. I felt as if I were not fully present, and had given full control of muscle and bone to another. I would hate such a thing were it not for love of the man who brought me to such a state. As end result, I did not hate it and would seek such feeling again from him.
Yeah, it takes a lot of trust to get into that space but I'm glad you have it with someone. Knowing it's okay to hand them that control because they won't use it to harm you
Unfortunately I'm just stupid and trusting so it's really easy to get me into that space, and that's worked out badly for me before
I know he could do me harm and would not hesitate to do so if it were his intent, and yet he has proven that he would not do such a thing and risk my trust. I allow him more control than I have allowed anyone. At times I still find that worrying.
[ fuuuck this compulsion. ]
That is fucking stupid. I hope they suffered for breaking trust and doing you harm.
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I would not describe such a thing as being full of water, not when full of cock instead.
I felt as if I were not fully present, and had given full control of muscle and bone to another. I would hate such a thing were it not for love of the man who brought me to such a state. As end result, I did not hate it and would seek such feeling again from him.
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Unfortunately I'm just stupid and trusting so it's really easy to get me into that space, and that's worked out badly for me before
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[ fuuuck this compulsion. ]
That is fucking stupid. I hope they suffered for breaking trust and doing you harm.