Maybe. I mean, trying can't hurt I guess. I think if I had something to focus on instead of trying not to focus on anything it would be better.

...Is it weird that, uh. Sex is kind of the thing that gets me to chill out and focus on my body? Like...like kink, especially?

[can he start saying he has to sub out because it's meditation, he needs it for his mental health, this is an important question]