You know, before I came here, I don't know if I'd ever once been told I was attractive unless it was part of a joke.
I'm not what my society considers attractive for a man, and I'm not a woman and I don't think I'd be good at pretending to be one even if I tried.
It took a long time after arriving here to believe that people meant it when they said I was attractive.
I just ... after a while, when I kept failing at everything I was supposed to be and do, I just gave up and did the things I wanted to do instead. And I was spoiled and wealthy enough to get away with it, even though I never stop being ... punished, in one way or another, for not being the kind of man I was supposed to be.
I just accepted being a laughingstock because at least it gave me some measure of freedom to get away with being myself.
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You know, before I came here, I don't know if I'd ever once been told I was attractive unless it was part of a joke.
I'm not what my society considers attractive for a man, and I'm not a woman and I don't think I'd be good at pretending to be one even if I tried.
It took a long time after arriving here to believe that people meant it when they said I was attractive.
I just ... after a while, when I kept failing at everything I was supposed to be and do, I just gave up and did the things I wanted to do instead. And I was spoiled and wealthy enough to get away with it, even though I never stop being ... punished, in one way or another, for not being the kind of man I was supposed to be.
I just accepted being a laughingstock because at least it gave me some measure of freedom to get away with being myself.