proofofconcept: (disappointed optimist)
Quentin Coldwater (The Magicians) ([personal profile] proofofconcept) wrote 2022-03-29 03:16 am (UTC)

[His kneejerk response is to say Huaisang is wrong, but...in the spirit of reconciliation and friendship, he tries really hard to sit with that for a minute, to ask himself if maybe Huaisang is right, or at least a little bit right. The answer he comes up with...isn't yes, per se, but.]

The way it feels to me is more like I'm just sensitive about my body and my appearance in general? People in Duplicity tell me I'm cute or whatever and I haven't been here that long but there has not been one time when it didn't feel like a cruel lie or a setup for a joke.

Look at the stupid ugly troll, so stupid he doesn't even know he's ugly, so ugly it's hilarious that he could ever be attractive

I've learned that people don't like it when I react that way so I mostly just keep my mouth shut about that feeling

So, I guess what I'm saying is I don't FEEL sensitive about masculinity but maybe that's kind of part of what's inside the thing I am sensitive about

Does that make sense?

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